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Dean in Love

They were sitting across from each other at the dining room table, and maybe its just me, but all I see is total goopy love eyes. He was very drunk, and very infatuated, and it clearly (to me) shows in his facial expression. This is the same night I caught him kissing her goodnight.


I’m super excited

Going on a road trip with a young friend. It is going to be quite an adventure. I have had a roller coaster of emotions and anxiety about the trip, but all the planning has helped keep my mind off of my separation. I’m going to post photos to flickr.

La indecisiĆ³n me molesta.

So my paid therpaist asked me “whats the point of the blog? so you can revisit these hurtful things later?” …. yeah I dont know, so I stopped for a week or so. It’s not as though I had been doing it a long time. I should have been doing it since this all started. eh.
But then my friend and unpaid therapist said she thought the blog was a good idea, and that I should share it with someone. I have to get used to the thought of that. I’m not ready to share. Maybe soon.

I am feeling li…

I am feeling like I want to file for divorce finally. I don’t know what I am waiting for.
The money is an issue, but mostly I also know its going to hurt,
like pulling off a band-aid …x1000.

I fear the finality of it all.
I was in denial all those months when he lived here, and a little piece of me still hopes we could make it work. I also do not like the logistics and the financial decisions involved. I feel like I already got the rotten end of this deal, and I don’t want to pay any more than I have to.

Gets me all anxious just thinking about it. So maybe I’m not ready.Image